Denial . . . maybe (oh yes)

I'd like to believe that I'm pregnant.  But I know I'm not.

I usually have my period by now - even though it's just 10 DPO.  All day my tummy has been feeling weird. Most recently I believe it's actually bordering on cramps. Or actually cramps.

I've had some LIGHT spotting .  Only can see it because I've got a liner in, or when I wipe.  VERY pale - but there none the less.

I don't believe that it's implantation bleeding (it could be, my temps dived yesterday and then rose today) because that just DOES NOT HAPPEN to me.

I don't believe that it's normal occasional bleeding while pregnant because THAT IS NOT MY LUCK.

Crap. F*ck. Sh*t.

Once it happens, I have to call the RE to get my tests on CD3 done and then an HSG between CD 5-10.

I don't want to face it.  I don't want to suffer the HSG like before.  I want to freeze time and curl up into a little ball and just be quiet.